On warped perception
On warped perception
Rest, deloading, and the treachery of the self
Rest, deloading, and the treachery of the self
Mar 24, 2024
I had my first planned deload week. I emerged from it feeling like I cheated myself. here’s what happened.
My previous best week of training was the one before my injury. last 3 weeks, I did 3 weeks of excellent running. hill climb, speed work, and some long runs with good elevation gain. the third week was a total of 40km including a 18km run with 350m of elevation gain. It was the by far my longest week of running.
I decided to deload. but I was in such a running groove that I did a speed session followed by 12k at high pace easy run. it was brutal. I felt my body complaining. My right knee started to hurt. that was a warning shot. I finished that run strong and decided to call it a week. the next day, my HRV had tanked. I knew I took the right decision. No long run on the weekend. Maybe just a hike.
All in all, I did my 3 swims, I did a strength session and 2 savage runs. I only skipped one run. And I still can’t shake it off my mind. maybe I should have done a recovery run, maybe an extra gym session… I don’t know. I just felt like I slacked off, even though this was totally intentional and planned even before my knee hurt and I felt my body in danger.
A few minutes ago, I was brushing my teeth and thinking about what I was going to write. I started thinking of swimming for some reason and I though: damn.. this would have been a good week to do a time trial. Instead of a run, I should have done an extra swim because I could benefit from the workout and it’s much easier on the body.
So I miss one run, and all I can think of is that I’m now selling myself short. What a terrible feeling. Thankfully, I knew it was coming. So I didn’t let it get the best of me. Last time I got sick, I made a contract with myself: no more reckless training. I decided doing less than enough is better than doing more than I can because I can’t afford to get sick or injured again.
I guess one other factor is that I didn’t cycle this week and did only 1 cycle last week. that has been really bugging me. But still… I needed the rest, I took it. it was just one missed long run. It shouldn’t feel this bad. It does feel bad as I’m writing this “damn, I should have done a 10k because a deload is about reducing volume not sessions”.
But I chose this because I felt like I needed it. I shouldn’t beat myself up about it.
I had my first planned deload week. I emerged from it feeling like I cheated myself. here’s what happened.
My previous best week of training was the one before my injury. last 3 weeks, I did 3 weeks of excellent running. hill climb, speed work, and some long runs with good elevation gain. the third week was a total of 40km including a 18km run with 350m of elevation gain. It was the by far my longest week of running.
I decided to deload. but I was in such a running groove that I did a speed session followed by 12k at high pace easy run. it was brutal. I felt my body complaining. My right knee started to hurt. that was a warning shot. I finished that run strong and decided to call it a week. the next day, my HRV had tanked. I knew I took the right decision. No long run on the weekend. Maybe just a hike.
All in all, I did my 3 swims, I did a strength session and 2 savage runs. I only skipped one run. And I still can’t shake it off my mind. maybe I should have done a recovery run, maybe an extra gym session… I don’t know. I just felt like I slacked off, even though this was totally intentional and planned even before my knee hurt and I felt my body in danger.
A few minutes ago, I was brushing my teeth and thinking about what I was going to write. I started thinking of swimming for some reason and I though: damn.. this would have been a good week to do a time trial. Instead of a run, I should have done an extra swim because I could benefit from the workout and it’s much easier on the body.
So I miss one run, and all I can think of is that I’m now selling myself short. What a terrible feeling. Thankfully, I knew it was coming. So I didn’t let it get the best of me. Last time I got sick, I made a contract with myself: no more reckless training. I decided doing less than enough is better than doing more than I can because I can’t afford to get sick or injured again.
I guess one other factor is that I didn’t cycle this week and did only 1 cycle last week. that has been really bugging me. But still… I needed the rest, I took it. it was just one missed long run. It shouldn’t feel this bad. It does feel bad as I’m writing this “damn, I should have done a 10k because a deload is about reducing volume not sessions”.
But I chose this because I felt like I needed it. I shouldn’t beat myself up about it.
