On weights
On weights
Responding in force, playing the game right, and sustainable effort
Responding in force, playing the game right, and sustainable effort
Sep 24, 2024
I’ve been analyzing the weight that I feel and I think most of it comes down to these three points
How will I respond to adversity
My response to this adversity needs to be good. That’s what I’ve learned from this training. When you have a 2h run, the first 1h30 are just to get you tired. The last 30 minutes in what really builds endurance. Likewise, the first five days of the training week are there to beat you up so you go into the weekend with tired body. No sense training with a fresh body. Likewise, one could say that the first 5 months were preparing me for this. I need to respond in force. I need to respond in force. I need to respond in force. Not so that I become an ironman, but so that I become the person I want to be. I can’t let this shit shake me, especially that nothing really happened yet. Nothing. Even the slow swim time is still 25min clear of the cutoff.
Not playing the game right
A point of equal importance but of more subtlety is this thing about loosing the ability to workout on the trainer. It’s like I gave everything I had in the past 5 months and I don’t have another month in me.
This is dangerous. This is a great learning opportunity that I must take. This last swim was not from my heart. it was both forced and underestimated at the same time. It was the wrongest of all wrongs: let’s just getting this out of the way.
That’s why it hurt so bad. I wasn’t in it. Water too cold and dark? I wasn’t present enough to take it in because I felt like I don’t need to learn how. I just need to get this one done however it’s gonna be and then I don’t have to think about it anymore. Everyone faster that me? Same. Feeling claustrophobic, gasping for air and shoulders burning? Same. This is just one swim, we still one or two more before IM and then that’s it.
I did not approach it from the right place. Normally, I should take it one thing at a time, and take my time with it. The goal will never change so what I have to do is do the work for as long as it takes. Can’t put a deadline on something like this.
I didn’t explain it right. But at least I know what I mean.
Unsustainable behaviour is creeping in
I broke my own rule. The rule is that at any point during this training, I should be able to live like this until I die. If it’s too much, then it’s not maintainable, then I’m doing too much.
There was always going to be a week of peak volume and that week doesn’t have to sustainable. I get that. But in fairness, it’s not this week that’s unsustainable. It’s the whole month with the move and the accident and the sickness. It was too much.
That’s why I’m panicking. It’s because I see that if this Ironman event doesn’t go my way, I can’t do this for another 6 months. That’s where the problem is. If you add to that my declining professional output and any possibility of losing a client, then of course I’m going to panic.
I’ve been analyzing the weight that I feel and I think most of it comes down to these three points
How will I respond to adversity
My response to this adversity needs to be good. That’s what I’ve learned from this training. When you have a 2h run, the first 1h30 are just to get you tired. The last 30 minutes in what really builds endurance. Likewise, the first five days of the training week are there to beat you up so you go into the weekend with tired body. No sense training with a fresh body. Likewise, one could say that the first 5 months were preparing me for this. I need to respond in force. I need to respond in force. I need to respond in force. Not so that I become an ironman, but so that I become the person I want to be. I can’t let this shit shake me, especially that nothing really happened yet. Nothing. Even the slow swim time is still 25min clear of the cutoff.
Not playing the game right
A point of equal importance but of more subtlety is this thing about loosing the ability to workout on the trainer. It’s like I gave everything I had in the past 5 months and I don’t have another month in me.
This is dangerous. This is a great learning opportunity that I must take. This last swim was not from my heart. it was both forced and underestimated at the same time. It was the wrongest of all wrongs: let’s just getting this out of the way.
That’s why it hurt so bad. I wasn’t in it. Water too cold and dark? I wasn’t present enough to take it in because I felt like I don’t need to learn how. I just need to get this one done however it’s gonna be and then I don’t have to think about it anymore. Everyone faster that me? Same. Feeling claustrophobic, gasping for air and shoulders burning? Same. This is just one swim, we still one or two more before IM and then that’s it.
I did not approach it from the right place. Normally, I should take it one thing at a time, and take my time with it. The goal will never change so what I have to do is do the work for as long as it takes. Can’t put a deadline on something like this.
I didn’t explain it right. But at least I know what I mean.
Unsustainable behaviour is creeping in
I broke my own rule. The rule is that at any point during this training, I should be able to live like this until I die. If it’s too much, then it’s not maintainable, then I’m doing too much.
There was always going to be a week of peak volume and that week doesn’t have to sustainable. I get that. But in fairness, it’s not this week that’s unsustainable. It’s the whole month with the move and the accident and the sickness. It was too much.
That’s why I’m panicking. It’s because I see that if this Ironman event doesn’t go my way, I can’t do this for another 6 months. That’s where the problem is. If you add to that my declining professional output and any possibility of losing a client, then of course I’m going to panic.
